Love Across the Street

valdane wants me to do all the things i should repair on
he said that the repair isn't something that i want but comes from someone
it will be meaningless
it won't change anything on me
it will just faking all the thing around me
but deep here it will be my own shame

just as i say at the first time
there will be a big wall between
but you don't get it and force me into it
see what i mean?

for the finishing blow
i get punches, kicks, but they won't hurt me
because hurt is just me
i am hurt itself

conclusion is:
i am a dumb ass
i am hurting myself
i am forceful
and the most important thing: i will never be able to be the ash's she used to know.

Dari kemarin gue ga ada lagu lain dah..
sejak karokean denger lagu ini.. jadinya dnger lagu ini teruss..
bahkan gue sampe donlod n masukin hape demi slalu mendengarkan lagu ini.

check this out!
Lionel Richie - I call it love

I Look At You, You Look At Me
(You Can't Tell Me You Ain't Feeling Butterflies)
Its obvious, There's some Chemistry
(I think I know why it feels so right)
Girl I wanted so long to know
Now You're telling me you gotta let it go
(Don't Tell Me I have to start all over again)
I Never thought that this day would come
(This is something that i wanted in my life)
I realize that you're the one
(and you're telling me its time to say goodbye)
What's inside my heart It ain't gonna change
So it shouldn't be so easy to walk away
(You feel it, I feel it, lets not pretend)

[Chorus]
Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is
Maybe I'm A Fool
I Just Know What I'm Feeling
And It's All Because Of You
Don't Tell Me "I Don't Know"
I Want The Truth
Cuz They Call It, We Call It
You Call It, I Call It Love

It's so clear for you to see
(don't let anybody tell you what to do)
Why they can't just let us be happy
(i don't want to find somebody new)
If you know what's real in your heart
Then don't let them tear us apart
(Coz you feel it, I feel it, Don't Say We're through)

We Have a bond that's unbreakable
And its not time to let it go
And now that we know its real
We're going to let it show
To the whole world
That I'm yours forever
and you're my girl

i call it love.

i was talking to EMR
and she made me thinking
what the hell am i doing?
is following what i said giving me satisfaction?
is it really my pride?
or is it just a stupid mindset of me?

i confuse.
so let me write down a poem so i can relax a bit. Xp

title: untitled

may i ask my words to be given back to me?
i want to
or i don't?
let me know me.
don't make me look dumb in front of you.
no one wants to look like a fool
especially in front of someone special, or maybe special like you.

tell me when i love you.
because it's harder to notice than if you are.
although i can't think about that, silly.

selama ini gue ngisi blog tapi ga ada yang mining..
hahaaaa... jadinya kali ini gue mau isi sedikit yang agak mining.. hahahaaa^^

abis kuliah bahasa inggris hari ini (25 maret 2009),
gue ngasi hadiah ke Elizabeth Maria Rosmian AKA Bebeth, hope she like it and not sell it.
i hope she use it at next monday. =3

malam ini,
gue nemuin poto gue sama "tante" gue yang udah laaamaaa banged..
namanya qonny.. cantik.. hehee
i won't be this happy if it's my photo with someone else,
beside it's been more than a year that i haven't seen her face.
miss you so much, sis. :)

satu-satunya minus adalah si bodoh sakit. hope you get well soon silly.
hope to have a picture of you soon.


valdane for ash

agak shock..
tmen2 smp gue yang cwe juga nyemok..
ckckck..

i do care about them.
bout is it okay?
THEY ARE NOT

malam ini, kembali aku mendapatkan kata terimakasih dari seseorang yang kuanggap spesial. sama seperti terimakasih dari a, aku tidak dapat menerka mengapa mereka berterimakasih padaku. i've done nothing at the moment they were thanking me. why are they?

gue bingung.
dan gue ga bisa bertanya tentang itu.
karena gue ga berhak.
dan gue merasa ada sesuatuyang salah kalau gue samapai mempertanyakannya.

and this one, also in the same situation as a.
fake smile. :)

finally,,
gue ngurus ni blog lagii.. huff...
walaupun isinya ga guna smua..
itung2 rajinin gue nulis lah..
hehee

at the moment i am:
a communication ui 2008 student
an internet addict
a stupid still always the way you want me
a BIG FAN of Ursula Vinessa Dwitayoasta

hahahaaa^^



song of the month:
yang aku ingin hanyalah pengertianmu tuk sedikit saja pahami maksudku,
yang aku ingin hanyalah agar kau mau, sekedar mengerti aku.

it's been a while since the last time i wrote.
i've been struggling with my college duties here.

but the reason of losing my will to survive is because of a reason that usual among all of the boys, girls. hahahaaa...

it's not something to laugh about though.

what do you think?
am i gonna forget her only because one DAMNED mistake?

Entah sampe kapan mo MT..
cape gue..

nilai gue ANCUR nih,,
MPKT ga masuk lagii..
tepar tak berdaya karena baru balik jam stenga 1..

Mana orang yang ngemeng KITA SATUUU???!!!

GUE GA SEHARUSNYA NGERASA KAYA GINIII !!!
SIAAALL!!!

Xp


*itu ekspresi saat di mobil kemaren.. hahaa..
what's wrong with me??

wakakakakak..
enak juga jadi maba lagii..
udah kapan tahu gue buka situs2 ntu.

oia,, i've figure out your question about the stupid loving and caring!!

:P

minggu ini dihiasi oleh dua orang yang sangat berharga bagiku saat ini..

named: asti dan dhea....

love them so much. thank you for make my week gorgeous.
hope the best for you two.

in another sunny morning, i wake up in a bad mood once again. my plan of daily jogging is busted with my laziness. since i've got nothing to do, i'm going straight to the bathroom and facing my sleepy face with the cold water from the shower. finishing my bath, i eat some meatballs and go outta my house to start thinking about the things that i will do today.

i check on my list that i made. it tells me that i should go and pick my car to pick up my friends. i have an appointment that i totally forgot.

when i arrived in my friend's place, she tell me that she can't go. my madness is completely raging in my heart. but i was just smiling and left her like nothing happen. i blow up my madness by going to timezone and play within three hours. it's a kind of relaxing stuff for me. when i'm about to go to the parking lot to go home, that thing happen. the moment, that make me can't get mad anymore...

yaa.. maap dah klo blog ini isinya ga da yang penting..
ga kaya blog yang lain yang minimal ada sesuatu yang bisa ditangkep..
hahaaa..

setelah masa-masa depresi yang lumayan membuat gue down, gue dapet apa yang gue mau sedari dulu, fisip ui. hahaa^^

pikiran gue juga udah bisa lebih fokus sekarang. orang yang ga mau makan itu, udah ada yang ngurusin lebih bae (uda ga jomblo lagi). orang yang biasanya ngebetein udah bisa nge-light-up suasana. tinggal 1 hal lagi nih biar lengkap. semoga gue bisa ngelihat senyum seseorang... hahaha^^

oia, buat yang baca, jangan makan cumi kebanyakan... nanti bisa dikutukk

FISIP UI !!!

CUMI TERNYATA BISA DILATIH JUGA!!

PENEMUAN TERBARU TENTANG BINATANG CUMI ADALAH SESUATU YANG MENARIK. CUMI YANG DIPELIHARA DI JAKARTA BARAT, SELAMA INI TERNYATA DAPAT BERKEMBANG BIAK DI DARAT. DITAMBAH LAGI, CUMI TERSEBUT BISA MENGENDARAI SEPEDA LAYAKNYA MANUSIA NORMAL. CKCKCK

etinot flesym etah i
pmiw a hcus m'i
tuhs htuom ym gnipeek tub gnihton gniod

?reh pots i t'nac yhw
resool a hcus m'i
ot elba s'eh taht sgniht od t'nac i

knurd reh edam i
reh ot neppah taht tel i
gnihtemos em llet
nehtgnerts ot sdrow ruoy deen i

tey ydaer ton m'i sseug i
hguone doog ton m'i

help me, so i can help her, and myself.


hate it SO MUCH.
ash

belakangan ini, saia seringkali berbicara tentang cinta yang terjadi di sekitarku.
baik cinta yang saia rasakan, maupun cinta yang orang lain rasakan.

saia merasakan pukulan-pukulan ke arah jantung saia yang tak berhenti berdegup.
sampai sekarang saia merasa cukup akan cinta dariNya.
cinta yang slalu saia perjuangkan.
cinta yang tak mungkin tergantikan oleh cinta yang lain.

bagaimana anda menggambarkan cinta?
cinta yang bagaimanakah yang anda berikan?
cinta yang bagaimanakah yang anda inginkan?
apakah anda merasa cinta sudah ada di hidup anda?

untuk mereka yang senantiasa spesial,
semoga kita dapat memilih pilihan yang kita ketahui baiknya,
dan tidak lagi memilih dosa yang kerap kita lakukan.



love it.
ash